Ugh Blah blah blah that's all I ever hear!

"Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else."
This is my quote of the day!
I feel like shit right now ! I woke up with only 4 hours a sleep behind me but I felt wonderful then I started moving around and the hunger growls kicked in but I ignored em and kept getting ready. I had to drive all the way to leavenworth for my damn Apt at the juvinile detention center lol I made a FUCKIN APT and they were like "um sorry ma'am we're a little too busy can you come back tomorrow" Um are you fuckin serious NO ! I can't come back tomorrow or the rest of the fuckin week the officer told me I had to be here within48 hours of me being arrested WOW seriously so agrivating !

Well I just ate a crap load I have like a half a cup of mashed potatoes!

Fried fish 3 small pieces COW

And some green beans I fed the rest to baron my doggy

so I"m sure I've gained five million lbs again UGH!!!

So why does everyone have to love the skinny bitches seriously it's not fair I wanna be skinny I wanna be loved I WANNA BE THIN!!!!!!

I wanna be thin so my boyfriend won't be embarassed to take me in public and be seen with that 'fat chick" god I know he loves me for me and he loves my body but I wann ado this for me and him so he can love the new me I'm trying to loose 80lbs and it's gonna be hard but I can do this ! he's my main motivation ! I love him with all my heart and I want him to love my body !