Ugh Blah blah blah that's all I ever hear!

"Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else."
This is my quote of the day!
I feel like shit right now ! I woke up with only 4 hours a sleep behind me but I felt wonderful then I started moving around and the hunger growls kicked in but I ignored em and kept getting ready. I had to drive all the way to leavenworth for my damn Apt at the juvinile detention center lol I made a FUCKIN APT and they were like "um sorry ma'am we're a little too busy can you come back tomorrow" Um are you fuckin serious NO ! I can't come back tomorrow or the rest of the fuckin week the officer told me I had to be here within48 hours of me being arrested WOW seriously so agrivating !

Well I just ate a crap load I have like a half a cup of mashed potatoes!

Fried fish 3 small pieces COW

And some green beans I fed the rest to baron my doggy

so I"m sure I've gained five million lbs again UGH!!!

So why does everyone have to love the skinny bitches seriously it's not fair I wanna be skinny I wanna be loved I WANNA BE THIN!!!!!!

I wanna be thin so my boyfriend won't be embarassed to take me in public and be seen with that 'fat chick" god I know he loves me for me and he loves my body but I wann ado this for me and him so he can love the new me I'm trying to loose 80lbs and it's gonna be hard but I can do this ! he's my main motivation ! I love him with all my heart and I want him to love my body ! 

Remember my perfume!

I've lost 7 lbs i the past two days I'm Happy

OKAY I hate you

yesterday was absolutely the most horrible day of my fuckin life!

me and two I guess you could call them friends well not now but we were going to pick up a friend and he had illegal tags on his vehicle so the cop pulls us over turns out this kid has a huge drug back ground which i know nothing about other wise I wouldn't have gone with him! So i have a weed pipe in my purse they end up searchin his car and going through my purse ! BUSTED they told the cop I had the pipe so they wouldn't get in trouble and completely threw me under the bus wow bull shit right so I'm standing on the side of the road in hand cuffs completely calm until I see my dads truck down the road! He's pissed already at me until he sees his daughter on the side of the roa in handcuffs I lost it and completely started bawling my eyes out and the cop had to hold my dad back from me he was so mad ! So yeah it's been wonderful I'm so stressed out I can't even eat which I guess is good I ate a little bit today to get my enegery going UGH I HATE PEOPLE

Day 2 of giovani's 30 day

Today is my second day of giovani ! so far I haven't had anything to eat yet
My calorie limit is 500 for today. I just bought a drink and it's 300 cals ! too many but oh well so that'll leave me with 200 cals left!
So today I go apply for my job at sonic ahh that's gonna be a sucky job because of all the food ugh that sucks !

Hey Girls and Guys I'm back after being gone so long

Well I'm back for good I"ve been gone tooo long! I've let my self go and I look absolutely horriable. I've been in this relationship with this boy named bobby and he's the absolute love of my life. He's a super huge fitness person he's like ripped lol and he doesn't care that I'm a damn whale. But I want him to help me loose this weight which his is doing and I've lost like 13 lbs and I'm feeling pretty good. He knows about my eating disorder and is trying to help me but i don't want the help cause I wanna be thin ! I hate my damn weight but he's helping me

So far I've had
soda :160 ;(
cheese ravioli : 340 ugh
that's 500 totall
Only 100 more calories for today!